Psychotherapy made him realise his "sexual relationship" with Afrikaans singer Jurie Els was wrong, singer Robbie Klay testified in the High Court in Pretoria on Thursday.

Els has pleaded not guilty to two charges of indecently assaulting Klay and soliciting him to commit indecent acts while Klay was under the age of 16.

According to Klay, therapy did not necessarily make him feel better about what had happened between him and Els, but made him see it in a different light.

"I now realise more how wrong it is. Initially I felt very guilty about it. It felt as if it was my fault. Why did I allow it and why didn't I stop it?

"(Now I realise that) the accused just used me for his own sexual purposes and to gratify his own fantasies. I started realising that if that's how a father is with his son, I don't want a father," he said.

Klay, who earlier described his alleged sexual activities with Els in graphic detail, said he "regretted" and felt guilty about what had happened between them.

It had also affected his life, as he felt he was not really in control of himself and his decisions.

"During my relationship with the accused he took most of the decisions. When I look at it today, it feels as if he had total control over me, because I felt comfortable with him and trusted him.

"Revealing what had happened to me had definitely affected my singing career. Public demand has waned.

"It was not an easy decision to tell my story to the public. That's also why I decided in the first newspaper article not to mention the accused's name. My sex drive was very high after our relationship ended. It's all I wanted. I just wanted sex.

"With every concert I would be on stage and search for a willing girl in the audience. Before we left I would make sure that I had her telephone number," he said.

Klay admitted that he had been a willing sexual partner to Els and that he had enjoyed the sexual side of their relationship "very much".

He only had two serious relationships with girls in his life and insisted he was presently not involved with anyone.

According to Klay, he had been upset by his mother's insistence he should listen to the men about his career.

He felt this was why his sex drive was so strong, as sex with girls made him feel good and made him feel that's what he wanted.

"I tried to prove to myself that I did not want to be gay. I'm not afraid people would think I'm gay. It's better to know that I put borders on myself when it comes to how I handle myself with gay persons," he said.

Klay testified that Els, a former teacher, had tried to help him complete matric and even paid for his classes, but he never took his studies seriously and was more interested in his singing career.

The trial was postponed to Monday next week, when Els' advocate, Danie Dorfling, will start cross-examining Klay.

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